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2004-12-23 || Where Are You Christmas? | |
It�s beginning to look a lot like�well, something. Why does it not feel like Christmas this year? I�ve noticed this the last few years � it just sneaks right up and then goes away as quickly as it came. There�s no excitement � no hustle, no bustle. Just one day it�s, �Oh, it�s Christmas Eve. Wow, how did that happen?� It�s not for lack of reminders around me, either. The house has been decorated and the Christmas tunes have been playing, but it still doesn�t feel like Christmas to me yet. I hope it�s not because I�m getting older - I hope this is all a fluke. I never want to lose that childlike wonder about the holiday. Maybe I�m still recovering from my years working in the retail industry and the horror that was Christmastime at the Hallmark store. (Although I must say, it�s not the day after Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve OR the day after Christmas that is the busiest day of the year in a card/gift/candy shop � it�s actually the night before Valentine�s Day. Complete chaos. And no chance of picking up a guy as they�re all there buying for their significant others. I hate girlfriends.) But it�s been a few years since I�ve worked in the retail world, so the curse should have run its course by now. I don�t know what it is then. One thing I do know is that feeling like it or not, this Christmas is remarkably better than the one I had two years ago. Things had just started to look grim between me and the Ex-Great Love of My Life. I try to forget how horrible that Christmas was and how I sat at my grandmother�s house on Christmas Eve, fighting back tears most of the night. It was awful. I just looked up an entry on my old diaryland site from that day and found this cheery holiday sentiment: When he asks about my Christmas, I will tell him that it was the worst one ever. Why? Because there is this amazing boy that I love who has made me unbearably sad. Good lord. How jolly and festive. Jiminy cricket. So yeah, things are MUCH better this year. Yet I still don�t know how to get it back � how to make it feel more like Christmas. Is that even something you can force? Maybe it�s because I�m old and crotchety and have been avoiding the crowds at the malls. Too many people! Too much mayhem! Harumph! (�Harumph� is a crotchety word, right?) Maybe I�m just freaking out about needing it to feel so special. I still have 2 days, right? And yesterday I did wake up with Snoopy vs. The Red Baron stuck in my head. I was quite happy to pass it along to my mom, who came home from work last night STILL singing it. Hee hee hee. Dammit, and now it�s back in my head. �Christmas bells, those Christmas bells�.� Dammit! That�s what I get for taunting my mom. I remember having that song on 8-track. Ooh, and there go all of my younger readers, all, �8-track? Damn, that bitch is old.� I�m not that old! Come back! I�m not all kinds of crotchety yet, even though I say �Harumph!� [sigh] (Side note: Was it just me, or did other people tape the audio off of Scooby Doo cartoons and listen to them on the 8-track players in their cars? We did that ALL the time. My poor parents � they must have been able to recite the episodes after a while. Ooh, and we also had superhero story records. The record sleeve came with a little comic strip that you could follow along on. My brother had Spider-Man and I had Wonder Woman. I still remember a lot of the stories. We wore those suckers out. Anyone else?) Anyhoo � where the hell was I? Oh yes, Christmas is in two days and I fear I�ve gotten too old to get excited anymore. Maybe Snoopy will help bring me back. Christmas bells, those Christmas bells.... Here�s to hoping this year becomes magical again. Merry Christmas, everybody. Dead Celebrity Sighting of the Day: Harry Caray. Well, Will Ferrell�s version of Harry Caray. (If you haven�t seen it, go directly to your local video store and rent Volume 1 of the SNL Best of Will Ferrell DVD. Watch Harry Caray. Don�t rent Volume 2, it�s not as good) I was at the doctor�s yesterday and he was sitting in the corner of the waiting room � big, square black glasses and WILD white hair. I just kept turning to my mom and saying, �WhuHEY! Hey! Would you eat the moon if it was made of ribs? It�s a simple question.� These are the times that I wish I had a camera phone. Whu�HEY! before & after 2007-09-26 - Follow Me! 2006-09-30 - Site Move & Favorite Entries 2006-09-25 - Evil Easter Bunnies & Rock Climbing! 2006-09-22 - Shameful-Purchase Hiding & A New Dentist Plan 2006-09-19 - Birthday Picture/Video Diary & The Wheelmobile Copyright 2003-2006 by Sockgirlie. Stealing is wrong. |